No!

Say NO to being sick. It's too late for me, but do it if you can. I have a "severe" cold. My tonsil are swollen, and very red, but they don't hurt. I have a cough, and it hurts my mid-section area, my nose was like the niagra falls of goo, I don't completely think straight, it's a little more difficult to fall asleep......... BUT other than that I am just fine and dandy. I signed up for Summer and Fall classes, and will be signing up for Intercession later. My classes are going well, I am getting exercise by feet and stairs, and uh... yeah. I need to go make some tea and finish homework now.

A-

So all of that time spent on picture taking paid off. I went to class the next day, worrying about when it would be my turn to critique. When the time came, the teacher said that my photos where the best out of his classes so far. Then he was talking about progress grades, saying everyone would be getting a B or a C... except for me. He said that it is rare for someone to nail the assignment the first time around. So I am very, very excited about that. i think this semester is going much better than last semester. I am definitely enjoying it much more. I like my teachers and my classes.

Pictures

I have been taking pictures all day. I am tired of it, but I am not done. I "changed" ideas so I started over. I've been taking a lot of breaks here and there, it's not very comfortable. Then again, taking breaks isn't very comfortable because of the lack of furniture and other comfortable things this apartment has. I mean, I would go for my bed... but I don't want to take the chances. Luckily my roommates won't be here tonight because one is spending the night at her brother's and the other is with her boyfriend. Thus, I won't have to worry about the lights being on. I am tired though and I do want to be done. I need someone to help me. Photographers have assistants too. I would have had Ryan help me, but I only got my props yesterday. And why didn't I start then? Well, I though it wouldn't be that difficult and after going around everywhere I decided I would get some sleep. I guess getting sleep means losing it... on the days that you don't want or need it to be lost.

Valentines Day

On Thursday after Ryan got out of class he came to my room and gave me 2 roses. After that, we headed to his sister's house where the rest of the roses were. He made me dinner and we watched Far and Away. The next day we went for a bike ride, it was very nice. On Saturday we just kind of worked on homework, and I headed back. Saturdays are better for that because I can catch a shuttle. It was a memorable weekend and a great Valentines Day. And now I am back in SF needing to work on homework. I actually need to go buy some props, and I need to go 15 minutes in one direction to get some, and possibly 15 minutes in the other to get the rest. The only reason I say possibly is because Trader Joe's is in the direction that I am first going and they might have what I need. I need to do that though. I slept 2 hours longer than I planned for. Oh well, it was nice. Oh! And I need to wash clothes. I must go then.

This weekend...

This weekend has been a really bad weekend for me. I had the incident with my Photoshop homework, now my People Photography homework... Can't I get a break? I'm not complaining. It's not like it's hard to fix, it just takes time. I look at some of my old posts and see that I get carried away with the not so positive side of things that I make up in my mind. I am not going to do that anymore, it was stupid and immature of me... and I am not stupid and immature. I will finish by saying that today was a beautiful day. And, although I wasn't able to get outside and walk around, I did enjoy it from inside. Oh, and one more thing, sometimes I go back and look at things I've posted and think, "Did I actually write that and post it?" Yeah, so that is why I don't like posting things often.

All day long...

Today I worked on my Photoshop homework all day. Some of you might be thinking, "Hey, Photoshop might be a fun class." Yeah, sure, it could be. It just depends on the assignments you are given. We're working on cloning and healing, and the picture I've been working on is very messed up. They could have started off simple. Who would ever work on normal everyday photos like that. I'm not going to take a picture that's so bad that I have to spend hours fixing it... and I don't use film. I know, I know... there are many reasons why and I should know it and I will do it more later on with my own photos or someone else's. I am not doing any Photoshop homework tomorrow. I have other homework and I need a break from my computer. Though, it took longer today because I felt crappy. It's that time of the month, and I, somewhat, refuse to believe that I should take something for it. It doesn't matter, I make it through each time. It was a nice day today too. I wanted to go outside and walk around, but I didn't. Partially because of homework, partially because I would have liked to do it with Ryan. I do get to see him 2 times a week, which is nice. And it's always a little longer than he plans for, thanks to me, because he has to catch the BART. I have yet to visit him while he is at his sister's. The good thing about that is that I can stay the weekend. If he comes here he has to leave the same day, and it costs $11.20. He's going to have to do it, though, because he said he would go to Golden Gate park with me... and we will go, sometime after Spring Break would be good. I can't wait to go! It'll be so pretty. It's very big. I am also going on a night field trip to the Sutro Baths. I think that will be fun too.

Photoshop...

My Photoshop class is going to replace Color and Design for the amount of time I spend on homework. I worked on it 3 hours this morning at the school lab. It was nice because no one else was in there, so it was nice and quiet. Anyway, when I got back I found that it didn't save right. So I had to start over. I think I have worked on it about that much since. At least Photoshop has something to do with my major. It's something that is worth learning, and I can have fun with it.

Just a day to relax...

Well, I was going to get up and go to the financial aid office and then to the lab to do some homework this morning. It didn't happen. I was tired and decided to sleep a little longer. I did go to the store and get some ingredients for taco soup. Then I came back and Ryan came over after class. I gave him some food and then we went out to take pictures for my homework. Then we ate at Chipotle and he had to go after that. I went to the school to get my homework, but the room where I sign in wasn't open. So, I went back to my room and did some other homework. I'm not done, but I am going to do what I was going to do today tomorrow.

Yesterday....

Well, I made it through yesterday not too bad. I did start losing it in my last class, my brain that is. It may have been because I was tired, but I was forgetting things. I was looking for my lens cover and I couldn't find it, so I just put my camera away. When I got it out a little later, it was on the lens. We didn't do much in the class last night, but I am not complaining. My first class went 10 minutes over, but it didn't hurt too much. I did a lot of walking yesterday, and I climbed stairs. It was good, I like to walk over riding the shuttle if I can because it's healthier and more reliable. So far, the semester has had a good start. I won't be saying that when my homework starts to strangle me though.

It's going to be a long day...

Nooo!!! It's only 9:30am. I get out of class at 9:50pm and I start at 12, but I am leaving at 10am. I'm already tired and I just woke up about 2 hours ago. I did have a nice big breakfast and I am going to have a protein bar for lunch/dinner, and I am drinking water and I will take some with me. I am going to walk too so I can burn it all off. This is how my Wednesdays are going to be, but I think I will survive... at least until 6, which isn't that great because my last class starts at 7. See, on Wednesdays my lab is from 8am-11am. I have one the same time Thursday, but I can go anytime. It's just my designated time to print, and since I am paying for the labs I need to use them. Plus, with the amount I am paying for this school, I just want to waste as much of their ink as possible. So, I have decided that I will print most things at the library (when I remember). Okay, I am going to get my things together.

Scholarships...

You know, I've looked for scholarships for who knows how long. Hours and hours, and days throughout the years. I never wanted to write essays, so I didn't. I wasn't eligible for most of them anyway, or I didn't have the time. I could have done what a lot of people do by getting a job and going to school part time, possibly after taking a year off. I was too busy to have a job in high school though and I didn't want a job. I went to a community college in order to save money and to figure what I wanted to major in. I was focused on going to school, and getting decent grades as well. When I figured out what I wanted to do I had 2 choices of colleges: Brooks and AAU. When I told people what I wanted to do, people would always mention Brooks. Yeah, it's a good school, but I wanted to go somewhere different. Thus, I chose to go to AAU. I actually didn't have a lot of experience with a camera, and I actually still don't. I understand way less than is acceptable where I am at. I can learn fast and well if I have good teachers, but I can't recall having any. Up until this semester I was only focused on going to school and getting decent grades. Except, my GPA fell under a 3.0, and chances of it ever going back up are extremely low. So now it is really time for me to be serious, hoping to get at least Cs in my classes. A C- at AAU is not considered passing. Instead of focusing on my grades I have to focus on learning. Honestly, I am just fed up and tired with school. I want to be done, but the time just keeps on getting longer and longer. And now, with that, the prices are getting even more expensive. In all of the time I have searched and applied for scholarships, I have received none. Maybe it was missing deadlines, maybe I wasn't eligible, maybe I didn't want to write an essay (partially because I knew nothing of the subject, partially because I didn't want to do research, partially because I had "better" things to do). I've tried and tried again, and I am not done. I am going to go to school and I will graduate with my BA in Photography. You know, maybe I know nothing, maybe I've gone to school for the wrong reasons... but I have come this far and I am not going to quit. The truth is, although I might not understand photography, and although I am barely good at it and don't have much of a creative imagination... I do like photography. I think it's beautiful, I enjoy taking pictures, and it's in my heart to do it for the rest of my life. I'm not stupid, and maybe I it takes me a little bit of time to understand things, but I am willing and ready to learn. I have gotten myself this far, haven't I? If people don't understand that I am tired of school and I am losing excitement in it, fine. Do what you need to do. It doesn't mean that I have lost excitement in what I enjoy doing, photography. School is school, it's the same field and it's a different field. Well, I am done... I can go on, and if it doesn't make sense, it would if I kept writing. It doesn't matter, though, because I understand it.