Zazzle

Zazzle is a website that Ryan has uploaded some artwork to. It can be sold in the form of mugs, shirts, stamps, skateboards, posters, and so on. He gets a small portion of the profit if he sells anything. So, I am trying to help him out and ask that you look at it and have your friends look at it. The other options, other than not helping, are donating money to us or giving us a job.

Books

I think reading would be nice if I could get interested in a book in the beginning. I get distracted very easily when reading and my attention goes quick... especially if I am not interested. Anyway, I ordered some and I hope they are good. After all, I am not a big television person and like a select amount of movies. I do like video games though... anyway, yeah... that's all.

Oh yeah...

it sucks that Obama won. I have this feeling that he can't satisfy everyone... I don't know what gives me THAT feeling. I am worried, but my faith was never in any president anyway. My faith is in God. Unfortunately, I think that I will always be discriminated against... but my chance for scholarships is better, I hope, since I will be married to a man in the Army. I really don't think things are going to change in a good way though, so who knows. It's just so pathetic that some people can complain and get things on the ballots, but I have no right. No one is equal though.

Well...

I know I haven't been keeping up on this. I plan on making a new blog soon. I haven't been too busy or stressed, so I'd like to think. I'm trying to take care of all of my medical needs before next Saturday because I will be off insurance without any money. This Saturday I am going to taste and choose some food that a friend of a friend has offered to make for the price of the food. It'll give us a variety of hor's de vours for the reception, and make it a little easier on my mom... even though I plan on helping if we ever get to making the food ahead of time. I am tired right now, at this very moment. I don't know why... I think it's the weather. It's actually pretty nice outside. It would have been a great day for a walk. Any day now I am expecting to get the engagement pictures. They'll be important to have and keep people busy at the reception while the bridal party is taking pictures at Quail Lakes. Only 9 days, it's been slow and fast. We are ready though... we as in everyone. Mom's and dad's, me and Ryan... everyone. And I am super excited to be going to Disneyland. I've been wanting to go for sooooo long. And I will be willing to go anytime if anyone else wants to go. I am always open for Disneyland.

Voting

I just pray that it's in God's hands. People don't know what this country needs, they only know what they want it to need. Whoever is elected cannot satisfy everyone. As much as I hope for certain candidates to be elected, I don't know. The media is mostly one sided. I am not saying that's a bad thing because I wouldn't be disappointed this time if they've created a false hope. I'm not into politics, but I will stand for what's right... and I know what is through the bible.

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Summer School

Summer school does not sound good. It makes it sound like I have done something bad and have been punished with school in the summer. However, I am not going about this with a bad attitude. I think what I previously said should happen for many people. Really, the amount of stupid people is way to abundant. I was not going to write about that though, so I will get to what I intentionally was going to write. I love writing papers, really... especially when I am interested in the subject and what I am writing. Thus, I am incompetent in compare and contrast papers and art history. Really, I am not interested in art history at all, and both of my classes are art history classes. I have taken film history, photography history, and am now in to the art history. Really, I could care less. There are some wonderful things in all of those, and I am willing to learn specifically about them and not generally about everything. The only important history classes are American history and things like that. I mean really, what's more important, the foundation of a country or the art that has drawn people to draw squiggly lines? I am not at all against traditional art, and, like I said, would not mind learning about specific things. I just can't write the stupid papers that I have to write. I don't want to be negative about it though. This is my midterm exam, why can't we have an actual test. How can a compare and contrast paper teach me and help me remember what I am supposed to have learned?

Lazy...

That's the life since I've been home. It's nice and comfy though... and I do things, slowly. I went to yard sales with my dad this morning and last week. I plan on going to the farmer's market, and more yard sales, throughout the summer. I'm leaving with my parents to go to Oregon in a week. That will be fun, and then I'll fly back for online classes. Someday I will look at my pictures and organize them and post a few on here... someday. Hehehe. I do plan on going boating and swimming a few times and camping... and working out, which I need to do now.

I'm done!!!

We'll see how my grades are in a few weeks, but I think I'll have an A and the rest B's. That's great for taking 5 classes!!! My classes this semester were way better than last semester. The roommate thing, as mentioned so many times before, was worse... but tonight is my last night ever with them! I actually slept last night too, and I feel great! It's wonderful!

Tired...

For the past couple of weeks I have been tired and stressed. I had my written finals last week, and my final projects are due this week. I've printed over 20 images, which is a lot considering it takes about 15-20 minutes to print each image. I've spent hours and hours in the printing labs. It takes longer, too, because there are only 6 printers and I can only print one at a time, and have to wait however long if there are no free printers. I did finish printing today, so I don't have to go to the lab at 8 tomorrow. It's nice. I just have to finish up some Photoshop editing explanations and then I am done. I've been taking pictures and editing them and printing them... I haven't been able to fall asleep at decent times, although I've tried and just lay in bed staring at nothing. It's been that way just about every night, and I know everyone has experienced that before. I have also been living on protein shakes and cereal. Well, a friend bought me some food yesterday and I ate out today with Ryan. Anyway, tomorrow is my last day of classes. Thursday Ryan and I might go to a movie and I will pack, and Friday at noon I check out. Ryan and I are coming back Saturday for one of his teacher's shows. Then on Wednesday we are coming back for the Spring show. We'll be staying at his sister's, where he has be living this semester. We'll be coming home the day after and then he's coming back up with his family to take them to the show. He has at least 2 pieces in it, edited down from around 70 submitted images from students to around 30. That's amazing! Anyway, I'll eventually post some pictures... when I am not so tired and when I have time. I can try Thursday, or Friday morning... considering I will have to take breaks from packing.

Okay, okay...

So, really, I have just been overly dramatic. It's when I'm feeling my "lowest" that I come on and write things... when I am just in a bad mood. Things aren't overly bad, they just aren't necessarily good. I just wish they were better... but that's not going to happen as long as I live in san Francisco and I am miles away from everyone I know and love. I mean, I have friends in class... but I don't hang out with anyone. I'm fine with that because at least I talk to them. I just wish I had my friends from home to hang out with... Jeni, Alex, Keith... that group, the one that actually does get together and hang out. I miss them. I am looking forward to coming home and living in a comfortable place for the summer. I don't have a problem with Fresno. It's near the mountains, near lakes, not that far from the ocean. The only thing bad is the weather/temperature and the pollution, but there is really a lot to do there. I need to go out this weekend and take pictures so I can print them next week. I won't be able to do it finals week because everyone will be last minute printing and I'll never get a chance to use a printer. What I take and turn in will be final. It's been difficult. I am not an expert printer, I am taking a printing class next semester. That is 15 weeks of learning how to print, and you didn't know it was so complicated, huh? That's not all, though, because the semester I will be taking and advanced printing class.... 15 more weeks. So, that's 30 weeks of learning how to print a good picture. Anyway, I am not going to waste paper. If the print isn't that great, my teachers will have to deal with it because it's $15 for 50 sheets... expensive. Photography is expensive. It's almost like going to school to be a doctor, but not making the money to pay for the entire time of being in school a year after graduating. That's exaggerating, but you get the point, right? Anyway, it's the second day of May. It's just May, and that means this month I will be going home for the summer, what a blessing. I am definitely the family type, loving, caring girl. I need my family.

Almost done!

After tomorrow, I will really be pushing to finish redo assignments and extra credit assignments because they are due next week. I still have a lot of pictures to take for projects, so I will be "busy" taking them......... last minute, of course. I'll get them done, and I could care less if my teachers don't like them. I have given my proposals for the projects in the way I want to go about them, and if they don't like the idea then they can take their own pictures. I photograph what I like and what makes me happy. I would like a break from taking pictures though. I think SF and AAU have somewhat ruined my excitement for photography. I understand why people in this city go crazy. Each step I take I hate it more... the city. I am tired of walking everywhere, I am tired of the stupid wind and the cold, I am tired of my living situation, I am tired of the smells, I am tired of the people and the drivers, I am tired of not being comfortable, and so on. Yeah, I get to come home for the summer and I am more than excited... but I'll have to come back to SF... for 5 more semesters, hopefully not more. Sometimes I wonder if I should just get another AA in Photography, and go to culinary school... or if I should just start going half-time and getting a job, or maybe just taking a semester off and getting a job. I've worked so hard to get here and I really want my BFA, but I am tired. I have been in college for 4 years now, and my reward is debt. Well, I should stop writing now. I guess it's all the same, everything I write.

3 weeks!!!

There is only 3 weeks left until this semester is over for me!!! 4 weeks until I come home!!! Ohhhhh boy! I am sooooooooooooooooooooo excited! I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait!!!

It's Monday!

My roommates are out at class or work, or whatever... but they are out. It's so much nicer and I am in a much better mood now that I am alone in my room. I haven't been so excited for a Monday to come. Now I just want the next 3 come and go by very quickly. I feel like I can breathe now that they are gone, it's so nice. Just a little over 20 days! I have to hold myself back about my excitement though, I don't want it to seem to go by slower. I don't want to be tortured anymore.

Dusk Photography

I like taking pictures around dusk. The colors are so beautiful. Unfortunately tonight things didn't go so well. I left a little early, but not as early as I originally was going to leave. I think I was just anxious to get out of my room. Anyway, I walked to the pier and sat there, and sat there more, and even more. I got there 2 hours too early. I was sooo cold. My nose was runny, I had on 2 beanies and 2 sweatshirts. By the time it got to picture taking, my camera was too cold to work properly. So I go a few pictures, but I am going to have to go back when it's a little bit warmer... if that'll ever happen.

Hobbs

This is Ryan's sister's cat.

The Sutro Baths

These are some pictures of my field trip to the Sutro Baths in SF for my color photography class.

Counting down the days...

Well, there are less than 50 left in this semester... but more than 40. I am counting down, I just don't remember the exact number off of the top of my head. I know it's getting sooner too because of all of the proposals I have to turn in for my final projects. I am actually not really looking forward to them... but I definitely can't avoid them since they are a big part of my grade. Classes are still better than last semester, the pace is picking up though. My roommates are worse, the smells of the city are the same, the shuttles I only use once week, I don't know what else to write. I am getting out of the city this weekend to spend time with Ryan at his sister's. We're going to get sweaty... by riding bikes, hiking? I don't know. Well, we'll get sweaty by working out, I know that. He is going to get ahead on his homework so he can spend more time with me and so we can get out of the house. It'll be a nice weekend with him and the weather will be nice.

No!

Say NO to being sick. It's too late for me, but do it if you can. I have a "severe" cold. My tonsil are swollen, and very red, but they don't hurt. I have a cough, and it hurts my mid-section area, my nose was like the niagra falls of goo, I don't completely think straight, it's a little more difficult to fall asleep......... BUT other than that I am just fine and dandy. I signed up for Summer and Fall classes, and will be signing up for Intercession later. My classes are going well, I am getting exercise by feet and stairs, and uh... yeah. I need to go make some tea and finish homework now.

A-

So all of that time spent on picture taking paid off. I went to class the next day, worrying about when it would be my turn to critique. When the time came, the teacher said that my photos where the best out of his classes so far. Then he was talking about progress grades, saying everyone would be getting a B or a C... except for me. He said that it is rare for someone to nail the assignment the first time around. So I am very, very excited about that. i think this semester is going much better than last semester. I am definitely enjoying it much more. I like my teachers and my classes.

Pictures

I have been taking pictures all day. I am tired of it, but I am not done. I "changed" ideas so I started over. I've been taking a lot of breaks here and there, it's not very comfortable. Then again, taking breaks isn't very comfortable because of the lack of furniture and other comfortable things this apartment has. I mean, I would go for my bed... but I don't want to take the chances. Luckily my roommates won't be here tonight because one is spending the night at her brother's and the other is with her boyfriend. Thus, I won't have to worry about the lights being on. I am tired though and I do want to be done. I need someone to help me. Photographers have assistants too. I would have had Ryan help me, but I only got my props yesterday. And why didn't I start then? Well, I though it wouldn't be that difficult and after going around everywhere I decided I would get some sleep. I guess getting sleep means losing it... on the days that you don't want or need it to be lost.

Valentines Day

On Thursday after Ryan got out of class he came to my room and gave me 2 roses. After that, we headed to his sister's house where the rest of the roses were. He made me dinner and we watched Far and Away. The next day we went for a bike ride, it was very nice. On Saturday we just kind of worked on homework, and I headed back. Saturdays are better for that because I can catch a shuttle. It was a memorable weekend and a great Valentines Day. And now I am back in SF needing to work on homework. I actually need to go buy some props, and I need to go 15 minutes in one direction to get some, and possibly 15 minutes in the other to get the rest. The only reason I say possibly is because Trader Joe's is in the direction that I am first going and they might have what I need. I need to do that though. I slept 2 hours longer than I planned for. Oh well, it was nice. Oh! And I need to wash clothes. I must go then.

This weekend...

This weekend has been a really bad weekend for me. I had the incident with my Photoshop homework, now my People Photography homework... Can't I get a break? I'm not complaining. It's not like it's hard to fix, it just takes time. I look at some of my old posts and see that I get carried away with the not so positive side of things that I make up in my mind. I am not going to do that anymore, it was stupid and immature of me... and I am not stupid and immature. I will finish by saying that today was a beautiful day. And, although I wasn't able to get outside and walk around, I did enjoy it from inside. Oh, and one more thing, sometimes I go back and look at things I've posted and think, "Did I actually write that and post it?" Yeah, so that is why I don't like posting things often.

All day long...

Today I worked on my Photoshop homework all day. Some of you might be thinking, "Hey, Photoshop might be a fun class." Yeah, sure, it could be. It just depends on the assignments you are given. We're working on cloning and healing, and the picture I've been working on is very messed up. They could have started off simple. Who would ever work on normal everyday photos like that. I'm not going to take a picture that's so bad that I have to spend hours fixing it... and I don't use film. I know, I know... there are many reasons why and I should know it and I will do it more later on with my own photos or someone else's. I am not doing any Photoshop homework tomorrow. I have other homework and I need a break from my computer. Though, it took longer today because I felt crappy. It's that time of the month, and I, somewhat, refuse to believe that I should take something for it. It doesn't matter, I make it through each time. It was a nice day today too. I wanted to go outside and walk around, but I didn't. Partially because of homework, partially because I would have liked to do it with Ryan. I do get to see him 2 times a week, which is nice. And it's always a little longer than he plans for, thanks to me, because he has to catch the BART. I have yet to visit him while he is at his sister's. The good thing about that is that I can stay the weekend. If he comes here he has to leave the same day, and it costs $11.20. He's going to have to do it, though, because he said he would go to Golden Gate park with me... and we will go, sometime after Spring Break would be good. I can't wait to go! It'll be so pretty. It's very big. I am also going on a night field trip to the Sutro Baths. I think that will be fun too.

Photoshop...

My Photoshop class is going to replace Color and Design for the amount of time I spend on homework. I worked on it 3 hours this morning at the school lab. It was nice because no one else was in there, so it was nice and quiet. Anyway, when I got back I found that it didn't save right. So I had to start over. I think I have worked on it about that much since. At least Photoshop has something to do with my major. It's something that is worth learning, and I can have fun with it.

Just a day to relax...

Well, I was going to get up and go to the financial aid office and then to the lab to do some homework this morning. It didn't happen. I was tired and decided to sleep a little longer. I did go to the store and get some ingredients for taco soup. Then I came back and Ryan came over after class. I gave him some food and then we went out to take pictures for my homework. Then we ate at Chipotle and he had to go after that. I went to the school to get my homework, but the room where I sign in wasn't open. So, I went back to my room and did some other homework. I'm not done, but I am going to do what I was going to do today tomorrow.

Yesterday....

Well, I made it through yesterday not too bad. I did start losing it in my last class, my brain that is. It may have been because I was tired, but I was forgetting things. I was looking for my lens cover and I couldn't find it, so I just put my camera away. When I got it out a little later, it was on the lens. We didn't do much in the class last night, but I am not complaining. My first class went 10 minutes over, but it didn't hurt too much. I did a lot of walking yesterday, and I climbed stairs. It was good, I like to walk over riding the shuttle if I can because it's healthier and more reliable. So far, the semester has had a good start. I won't be saying that when my homework starts to strangle me though.

It's going to be a long day...

Nooo!!! It's only 9:30am. I get out of class at 9:50pm and I start at 12, but I am leaving at 10am. I'm already tired and I just woke up about 2 hours ago. I did have a nice big breakfast and I am going to have a protein bar for lunch/dinner, and I am drinking water and I will take some with me. I am going to walk too so I can burn it all off. This is how my Wednesdays are going to be, but I think I will survive... at least until 6, which isn't that great because my last class starts at 7. See, on Wednesdays my lab is from 8am-11am. I have one the same time Thursday, but I can go anytime. It's just my designated time to print, and since I am paying for the labs I need to use them. Plus, with the amount I am paying for this school, I just want to waste as much of their ink as possible. So, I have decided that I will print most things at the library (when I remember). Okay, I am going to get my things together.

Scholarships...

You know, I've looked for scholarships for who knows how long. Hours and hours, and days throughout the years. I never wanted to write essays, so I didn't. I wasn't eligible for most of them anyway, or I didn't have the time. I could have done what a lot of people do by getting a job and going to school part time, possibly after taking a year off. I was too busy to have a job in high school though and I didn't want a job. I went to a community college in order to save money and to figure what I wanted to major in. I was focused on going to school, and getting decent grades as well. When I figured out what I wanted to do I had 2 choices of colleges: Brooks and AAU. When I told people what I wanted to do, people would always mention Brooks. Yeah, it's a good school, but I wanted to go somewhere different. Thus, I chose to go to AAU. I actually didn't have a lot of experience with a camera, and I actually still don't. I understand way less than is acceptable where I am at. I can learn fast and well if I have good teachers, but I can't recall having any. Up until this semester I was only focused on going to school and getting decent grades. Except, my GPA fell under a 3.0, and chances of it ever going back up are extremely low. So now it is really time for me to be serious, hoping to get at least Cs in my classes. A C- at AAU is not considered passing. Instead of focusing on my grades I have to focus on learning. Honestly, I am just fed up and tired with school. I want to be done, but the time just keeps on getting longer and longer. And now, with that, the prices are getting even more expensive. In all of the time I have searched and applied for scholarships, I have received none. Maybe it was missing deadlines, maybe I wasn't eligible, maybe I didn't want to write an essay (partially because I knew nothing of the subject, partially because I didn't want to do research, partially because I had "better" things to do). I've tried and tried again, and I am not done. I am going to go to school and I will graduate with my BA in Photography. You know, maybe I know nothing, maybe I've gone to school for the wrong reasons... but I have come this far and I am not going to quit. The truth is, although I might not understand photography, and although I am barely good at it and don't have much of a creative imagination... I do like photography. I think it's beautiful, I enjoy taking pictures, and it's in my heart to do it for the rest of my life. I'm not stupid, and maybe I it takes me a little bit of time to understand things, but I am willing and ready to learn. I have gotten myself this far, haven't I? If people don't understand that I am tired of school and I am losing excitement in it, fine. Do what you need to do. It doesn't mean that I have lost excitement in what I enjoy doing, photography. School is school, it's the same field and it's a different field. Well, I am done... I can go on, and if it doesn't make sense, it would if I kept writing. It doesn't matter, though, because I understand it.

School is confusing...

For "fun" I try to figure out my class schedule for the rest of the classes I have remaining at this school. A few weeks ago I thought I had 90 units left to take, this week I thought I had 81, and today I KNOW that I only have 69 left. It's exciting and not at the same time. I mean, I kind of got fed up with school when Fresno City screwed me up... but I did not give up. Yet, I should know the basics of Photography by now... and, honestly, I am still so confused by it. I'm not going to step down though. I really just want to be done with school... I am tired and I need a break. And I know that getting a job wouldn't be a break, but it would be something different, something knew. I just want to be with the people I know and I love. Maybe no one in the world can understand that I can only perform to the best of my ability when I am comfortable and happy, and I am not here. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do and I am excited to do it, and I can't wait to go somewhere with it. It's just hard for me when I am here in a dorm with roommates I don't exactly like, in a city I don't exactly like, afraid of going places alone... things like that. I don't care about friends. I try to talk to people, believe it or not... I try to make friends in my classes. It doesn't work though, and I do not care. I have friends at home that I talk to. I do wish Ryan were here though. I've been so blessed by the time that I have gotten to see him, and I just didn't want to have to see him less. I've only been here a week... Yeah, sure, it'll be a good experience for me... but I experienced enough of it last semester. An experience for one person can be totally different for another. You know... I know I have my flaws, I know I am not perfect and that I make mistakes... welcome to being human. It is my choice to make the best of it, to learn, to be the best person that I can be, and that is what I do. It's only been a week... it's going to be a long semester.

Yeah...

do you know what time it is??? Do you!?!?! 8:36! Okay, okay... I'll calm down. No complaining. That's what I said, it is. Moving on... today has been "productive." I woke up... at 4:15am, it's going to start again. I wasn't sure I was going to be able to go back to sleep, I was uncomfortable and hot. I tried, and then decided to look at my clock again... it was only 4:23am!!! I did go back to sleep and chose to sleep 30 minutes longer than I had originally planned (until 7:30am) because I didn't look at the clock when I actually woke up. I do have a night light with me this time, because I am afraid of the dark and the nightmares that I have. Anyway (I unplugged it) I got up, ate some food, and went to the gym. I have decided, unless I am going to swim, 9:15am Monday morning is not a good time to be at the gym because it's busy. I did get a treadmill and jogged 1.78 miles in 20 minutes today. It's an improvement, but I also wasn't at a 1.0 slope (which is my norm when I jog). I got back, took a shower, waited a while to get on the internet to do my online class because my roommate was on it, and then got on and worked through the first module and am now on the second. I haven't done the assignment for this week, but I have done the discussions, posted twice so far, took my quiz and got 100% (because they are that easy, and timeless through the module so I can start and stop and look and my notes and go to Disneyland in between).

P.S. Someone please confirm with me that 7-8 hours is the healthy amount of time that adults should sleep. Because if it's any different tell me now so I can adjust my sleeping schedule. If I, Elizabeth, went to bed at this moment I would get out of bed no later than 5am. If the healthy amount of sleep hours is longer, tell me. If it's shorter you can just keep it to yourself and I'll stick with the unhealthy amount of 7-8 hours.

P.P.S. That was not complaining. It's an indirect loophole.

P.P.P.S. Maybe I should give myself longer breaks with working on homework, but I want to get ahead.

This Semester

The semester starts tomorrow. I got here Wednesday to check-in and found that they hadn't received my check. So, although I was unable to get my keys, I was able to take my stuff to my room and drop it off. After that, Ryan had to get the stuff that he had left in his room and we headed to his sister's. He is living with her this semester, an hour away on BART plus a 20 minute drive. I know he's not going to miss me, he's a guy, but I am going to miss him. I already miss him... I have, and will, check my e-mail and instant messenger multiple times a day to see if he has sent me anything. I have and will hold onto my phone dearly if he ever calls. Unfortunately, he does not like talking on the phone... not even to me, and he doesn't always have the time to call or doesn't always feel like calling. TV is more important to him during his breaks from working. Guys use the excuse of being a guy for many things, but I think that also takes away from a guy being a gentleman. There is no good excuse for anything. I was going to leave Friday, but left Saturday because we were invited to a birthday party of some of Rebekah's (Ryan's sister) friends. The BART was an hour trip, then I walked to check-in. I got there before it was open, but only waited about 5 minutes and then 10 inside. I took a shuttle back to my dorm and got organized. Today I did more organizing and some grocery shopping. I also went out to dinner with my cousin Michel and her friend. It was nice hanging out with her. I have also decided that I am not going to complain this semester. Of course, I think I will allow loopholes to the point of bringing up last semester (a.k.a. comparing things to last semster). For example, the roommate that I bunk with still talks on the phone just as much and is just as annoying... and maybe worse. Okay, that's more complaining than comparing, but I had to say it. Now that it's out I can stick to not complaining... Anyway, something clicked in my brain tonight and I finally understand what some of my transfer credits meant. Thus, instead of having 90 units left at this school, I only have 81 more units to take. I'll figure it out sometime. I just want to be done with school, really. And I think that the sooner I am done, the better. Prices keep on going up and I already can't afford it.

Fun

Well, today my friend Jessica and I met up at Starbucks and talked for a while. After that we headed off to her house and made a cake. It was a fun day. Well, I suppose it was yesterday now, according to time. I also attempted to start crocheting again. Of course, I don't think I should start out with a beanie... but I am. The furthest I have gotten is.............. nowhere! I keep on starting over. It doesn't look right, I don't know how it's supposed to look, and I keep forgetting count (and it seems to be important). Maybe I am just too tired to do it right now. It has defeated me. Maybe I will conquer it tomorrow.

Things

Since I have been back in Clovis I have been sitting back and relaxing. Really, I don't mind being lazy because once I go back to San Francisco I will be walking everywhere again and I will be overloaded with homework. Oh, and I'll be stressed by that and by the stupid people of San Francisco... and the horrible smells, and so on. I went to Yosemite last week, Monterey over the weekend, I am going snowboarding Thursday... I can't do that in San Francisco. Someday, I hope to go to Golden Gate Park... like in the Spring. I want to go to Clear Lake too... in the Spring. Hopefully it works out. With looking at the amount of units I have left at AAU, I will be graduating in 2010. Of course, depending on how I want to do it, I can graduate in Spring, Summer, or Fall of 2010. I don't mind if all I get are C's. I should be done with college in May this year, and it's not my fault that I am not. I was willing to push myself and Fresno City messed it up, and then barely any of my classes transfered to AAU. Oh well, there's not much I can do. My final grades for last semester should be up today, and I stayed up until midnight, but they weren't up, and I have checked at least 5 times since and they still aren't up. Of course, typical AAU... never on time with anything. The school is actually pretty disappointing... to me, at least. That's not going to stop me from going, but it doesn't make things better. I think what I like the most is walking everywhere... but it's barely safe. I'm not a city girl, I don't want to live in cities. I like trees and grass and fresh air and seeing the sun and the moon and stars, and the list goes on. I just want to be done with school... but after I graduate I'll just be working on getting out of debt. I would get scholarships... but in order to not discriminate discrimination must happen. I mean, come on, I'm a white girl that lives in America... I must have money, it only makes sense that families like mine would have great paying jobs and my parents would have the money to pay for my tuition of more than $75000 (without any loans or Cal Grants, savings bonds, or any other help). I'm not trying to have a bad attitude, but after looking for scholarships for hours, days, months, and years, and after applying to them... it's very discouraging. It's not my fault that I am in the situation that I am in, but there are people that worse off than me... so they're more deserving than me... and they don't have to try or work their way to it. Sure, I have things that I don't need or deserve... but it's not like they just appeared, I had to work for it (and some things are made necessary). I could go on, but I think I need to stop here.