Things

Since I have been back in Clovis I have been sitting back and relaxing. Really, I don't mind being lazy because once I go back to San Francisco I will be walking everywhere again and I will be overloaded with homework. Oh, and I'll be stressed by that and by the stupid people of San Francisco... and the horrible smells, and so on. I went to Yosemite last week, Monterey over the weekend, I am going snowboarding Thursday... I can't do that in San Francisco. Someday, I hope to go to Golden Gate Park... like in the Spring. I want to go to Clear Lake too... in the Spring. Hopefully it works out. With looking at the amount of units I have left at AAU, I will be graduating in 2010. Of course, depending on how I want to do it, I can graduate in Spring, Summer, or Fall of 2010. I don't mind if all I get are C's. I should be done with college in May this year, and it's not my fault that I am not. I was willing to push myself and Fresno City messed it up, and then barely any of my classes transfered to AAU. Oh well, there's not much I can do. My final grades for last semester should be up today, and I stayed up until midnight, but they weren't up, and I have checked at least 5 times since and they still aren't up. Of course, typical AAU... never on time with anything. The school is actually pretty disappointing... to me, at least. That's not going to stop me from going, but it doesn't make things better. I think what I like the most is walking everywhere... but it's barely safe. I'm not a city girl, I don't want to live in cities. I like trees and grass and fresh air and seeing the sun and the moon and stars, and the list goes on. I just want to be done with school... but after I graduate I'll just be working on getting out of debt. I would get scholarships... but in order to not discriminate discrimination must happen. I mean, come on, I'm a white girl that lives in America... I must have money, it only makes sense that families like mine would have great paying jobs and my parents would have the money to pay for my tuition of more than $75000 (without any loans or Cal Grants, savings bonds, or any other help). I'm not trying to have a bad attitude, but after looking for scholarships for hours, days, months, and years, and after applying to them... it's very discouraging. It's not my fault that I am in the situation that I am in, but there are people that worse off than me... so they're more deserving than me... and they don't have to try or work their way to it. Sure, I have things that I don't need or deserve... but it's not like they just appeared, I had to work for it (and some things are made necessary). I could go on, but I think I need to stop here.